Author's Notes: ^_^ This fanficion does nothing to hide the fact that it's pure Touya/Yukito yaoi romance. That means there will be lots of mushy scenes with fairly graphic sex mixed in. Of course, I doubt you'd be here if you didn't already know that. ^_- But in case you didn't, and you're not the biggest yaoi fan in the world, I suggest you leave now. A note about how this fits into CardCaptor Sakura. I haven't followed the canon storyline very closely. It especially disregards the events in the August '99 Nakayoshi. Also, there are no Clow Cards/Sakura Cards, Sakura isn't a major character, and, as much as I love him, Kero-chan doesn't appear at all. ^_^; Oh, just a small note about language. I might have used a bit too much Japanese when writing this. Gomen. ^^; Disclaimer: CardCaptor Sakura and all its characters are copyright CLAMP. CLAMP ga daisuki! ^_^ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Touya no shinjitsu no kimochi (Touya's True Feelings) By Andrea Doolan Rated: H ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~*~*~*~*~ It was a beautiful spring day at Seijou High School. The sakura blossoms were in full bloom, and there was a crispness in the air that told of a winter that wasn't far behind. The shining sun, however, promised that summer would soon make an appearance. It was the first day of class of the new school year. Giggling school girls could be seen everywhere. Some were entering Junior High School and trying out a seifuku complete with kaban for the first time. Others were discussing which class they hoped to placed in. Others still lamented about being in either third year junior or senior high and all the work they would have to do that year to pass their desired exams. There were many boys around, too, of course. Many were joking with old friends and talked about which clubs they would join this year. Some were already intensely devoted to their studies and tried to get a head start by studying while walking to school. One particular boy in a light blue jacket, white shirt, black tie, and black pants was riding his bike along a road temporarily unoccupied by cars. Many sakura trees lined the road creating a pattern of shadow and sunlight along the road's surface. The boy was lightly humming to himself and seemed relatively carefree. He slowed as he approached a certain corner. The same one he had stopped at every school day since he began high school. "Yo, Yuki," said the black haired boy. "Ohayou, To-ya," said the white haired boy waiting for him at the corner. He was a good twenty centimetres shorter than boy on the bike. Yukito pushed off with his own bike and began riding alongside Touya. "So, how does it feel to be starting third year?" asked Yukito. "I don't know," replied his friend. "It seems a little odd to be the oldest in the school. And the classes will be harder." "Don't forget the entrance exams we'll have to study for." "Yeah. We don't want to become rurouni," said Touya with a little laugh. "I wonder if we'll be in the same class this year?" "Saa..." The two then saw their school emerging in the distance. They made their turn into the gate and proceeded to park their bikes. They were greeted by many smiling people eager to start their new year. They joined the other students in filing into the school and figuring out which class to go to. ~*~*~*~*~ When the lunch bell rang, Touya found his way to class 3-C. Unfortunately, he was in 3-D meaning he couldn't spend all day with his friend. This thought saddened him a little. "Hey, Yuki. Ready for lunch?" It was all the initiative Yukito needed to finish up with his work, grab his huge bentou and join Touya for lunch on the grass outside. Apparently the idea was popular. Practically every student in Seijou was eating outside. "So, Sakura-chan starts Grade 5 today, right?" asked Yukito between bites of rice. "Yeah, I can't believe she's already that old. She'll be in Junior High before I know it, and I won't be able to keep an eye on her as much anymore." "To-ya, you're very protective of Sakura-chan," he said smiling. "I guess. I think she needs someone to look out for her, though." "With you always there for her, I'm sure she'll grow up to be a wonderful woman." Touya blushed a little at this. "Thanks." The conversation then turned to school-related topics and what universities they were thinking about taking the exam for. ~*~*~*~*~ That night after his soccer meeting Touya rode home in the sunset to his beautifully kept yellow house. "Tadaima." "Okaeri!" shouted his dad from the kitchen. Touya went upstairs to dump all his stuff in his room. He heard sounds coming from Sakura's room, so he knocked on her door to see what was up. He could hear some panicked cries and then silence. "Come in!" "Ima no koe wa nan desu ka?" Sakura laughed nervously while keeping a hand over her pillow. "Na...nandemonai yo! Terebi dake..." Touya shrugged it off. "So, how was the first day of school?" Suddenly Sakura's eyes got very bright. "Ah! It was so exciting! Tomoyo-chan is in my class! So is Syaoran-kun! Rika-tachi mo! Our new sensei seems nice, too. I hope she doesn't work us too hard.... Oh! Guess what! We're learning new things in cheer-leading. I have to practice before the next club meeting. I can hardly wait till tomorrow. It feels so good to start a new year!" Touya had a slightly confused look on his face. "Well, if you say so. It's good to see you're enjoying yourself so much." "What about you, oniichan? Did you and Yukito-san get in the same class?" "No, Yuki and I got split up. Nothing really we can do about it, though." "Ah, that's too bad." 'I wish I could be in Yukito-san's class...' she thought to herself. Just then they could hear the voice of their father calling them to dinner. "Hai!" they both said together. ~*~*~*~*~ That night Touya laid on his bed in his darkened room with his arms behind his head. Various images flashed through his mind. Work, school, soccer, Yukito... Yukito. He remembered back to the several times when he was about to confess his feelings to his friend. There had always been something to stop him, though. 'Maybe it's a sign,' he thought. He wondered if he would ever get a chance to tell Yuki how he really felt. Ever since he had first met the smiling boy he could sense something special about him. He had a strange aura around him that mystified Touya, and made him realise Yuki wasn't all he appeared to be. He had also felt something happen inside himself. They became fast friends and began hanging out together quite often. More and more everyday Touya could feel himself falling deeper and deeper in love with his friend. He couldn't sense any reaction from Yukito, though. Did he feel the same? Completely different? Neutral? Touya really had no clue. He knew that he had to get his feelings out in the open soon. He wanted to look at Yukito as more than a friend and get the same look back in return. He wanted to softly touch the other boy and have his lips press against his friend's. No, no matter what his friend's reaction was, he had to say his peace. Touya thought long and hard and resolved to confront Yukito on Wednesday afternoon when they both had time after school and had planned to go out for something to eat anyway. Touya sighed. This was it. It didn't matter *what* tried to interrupt them. He *would* confront Yukito that day. With his mind made up, he rolled over and fell into a deep slumber. ~*~*~*~*~ It was the last period of day, and Touya couldn't concentrate on anything at all. He kept looking at his Calculus book like it was written in a foreign language. 'Come on!' he thought. 'They're just simple derivatives. 4x^2 + 3x - 4 = dy/dx 8x + 3. There, that wasn't so hard. 5x^8 - 6x^3 + 5 = dy/dx Yuki.' He looked at his page again. 'Baka.' He erased the incorrect derivative, but couldn't seem to try for the right one. 'Calm down, Touya. You've done this before. Sort of. It's no big deal. Yuki could never answer before, though.' "Chikushou!!" he yelled out loud unintentionally. The entire class was staring at a very embarrassed Touya. "Um, can't seem to get this one right..." he said meekly with a very big sweatdrop. ~*~*~*~*~ After school, Touya looked for Yukito among the students leaving to go home or to clubs. He couldn't see him, so he decided to check out some of the various places on the grounds where they would often go to talk. As he turned to go around a tree, he suddenly saw who he was looking for. He was about to call out to Yukito, but he saw a girl run up to where Yukito was waiting. He didn't quite know the girl. He thought her name was Tachikawa something. Her wavy green shoulder length hair was done up in a half ponytail. He did recognise her, though, as being in third year and in Yukito's class. She had a small present in her hands, and was holding it nervously. Suddenly Touya knew what was going on. Someone was going to beat him to it. "Ano...Tukisiro-kun?" asked the girl nervously. "Hai, Tachikawa-san," said Yukito smiling. "Etto...etto...kore!" she said as she thrust the gift outwards. "Arigatou!" said Yukito cheerfully. "Ah, cookies! I love cookies." All the girl could do was blush and look at the ground. "I've, um, been meaning to speak with you for some time." "Oh?" "Hai. I got to know you pretty well last year... And, um, I've been trying to get up enough courage to tell you that...I like you." All Yukito could do was to stare wide-eyed at her. She looked expectantly at him. He tried to smile at her. "I'm sorry, Tachikawa-san. It's not that I don't like you...I think we could be very good friends, but I can't think of you in that way. Gomen nasai." Tears started to form in her eyes. "That's okay, Tukisiro-kun. I understand. The girl that gets you is going to be very lucky." Suddenly she quickly walked away from the scene, trying not to sob too loudly. As she exited the small clearing, she saw Touya standing there. Her eyes went wide in realisation. 'Kinomoto-san! Of course!' Touya looked at the girl as she jogged past him. He could see the pain in her eyes. He had seen a similar scene several times before himself. It seemed there were many female admirers of his at the school. It made him feel so bad to keep breaking their hearts. Then he looked at Yukito. The smaller boy had spotted him standing there. Touya's nervousness got the better of him again, and he started to feel a bit woozy. "To-ya..." "Yuki..." He walked over to his friend. "I know you must feel bad, but there's not much you can do about it." "It must be awful to be in a one-sided relationship." Touya just stared at him. 'Yeah, you have no idea,' he thought. The two friends then left the school and headed to a near-by restaurant they both liked. ~*~*~*~*~ After Touya had finished his small serving of ramen, and Yukito had finished his six large ramen dishes, Yukito insisted on finishing up the afternoon with some ice-cream. "Omae... How do you eat so much and not get sick?" "I just have a really good metabolism," said Yukito smiling. "Eh... Whatever you say." The two strolled into a park by the water. At this time, it wasn't too full of people, so they also had lots of privacy. Touya suggested resting on a bench, and they ended up watching a very beautiful sunset. Touya looked at his happy friend quickly eating his ice-cream before it melted. He looked so beautiful. Especially the way he sun made his features glow. "Yuki..." Touya almost whispered. "Hai?" said his ever-smiling friend. "Listen, I don't know how you're going to react to what I'm going to say, but I've resolved to say it anyway." He looked deeply into the other's eyes. "Ore....Ore wa omae ga...suki desu." Touya could feel his cheeks burn. He now avoided Yukito's gaze, and looked at the ground. This was it. There was no turning back now. He would have to take the consequences, whatever they may be. He could feel a hand being placed over top his. He suddenly looked up in surprise. "To-ya, I already knew what your feelings were," Yukito said calmly. Touya just continued to stare. "I see it in your eyes everyday, in the way you talk to me, in the way you act around me. I hope I've shown you some of that compassion back. Boku mo suki desu." Did he just hear that right? "I love you, too." The words resonated in his head for a few seconds. Touya was practically speechless. The most he had even hoped to dream of would be continued friendship with Yuki. But this? This was like a miracle. 'Kiseki wo shinjite.' He heard that in an anime once. "Yuki, I..." He could feel Yukito's hands clasp tightly over his. He just couldn't resist. He bent down a bit further, bringing their faces millimetres apart. He then closed his eyes and enjoyed the marvellous sensation that followed. Yukito's lips were soft and a bit moist. He could still taste the strawberry ice-cream he had been eating. He brought his hands around his partner's waist and held him more closely. After what seemed like far too short a time, Touya reluctantly broke the kiss. He stared lovingly at his friend. "Na, I guess this changes things a bit." "Chotto ne," replied Yukito. After some silence he spoke again. "Ne, do you think we should tell people?" Sakura. Otoosan. His friends. His classmates. They were all people who either had the right to know or at least would probably find out eventually. "I don't know..." He thought for a moment. "Sakura should know. So should otoosan. And probably your grandparents, too." "Sou ne," said Yukito. "Poor Sakura-chan. How do you think she'll take the news?" "I'm not sure. She's fallen for you, that I know. She'll probably be heartbroken for a little while at least. Though, I know Sakura, I think she'll eventually come to accept it." "I hope so." Yukito looked a little depressed. "What's the matter, Yuki?" He suddenly smiled again. "Oh, nothing. I just hope you're right." Touya hesitated, and then started to talk. "Would you mind...if we waited a little while to tell people? For one it would at least give us a little private time to ourselves without us worrying about other people." "Sure, that sounds fine with me. We probably shouldn't tell until we feel comfortable with it. I think the more comfortable we are, the more comfortable other people are more likely to be." Touya just nodded his head. The couple stayed on the bench for a long time after that. They just enjoyed the embrace of the other person, and the love that now enveloped their relationship. ~*~*~*~*~ Several weeks passed in pure bliss for the couple. They both felt a huge weight lift off their chests, because their feelings were now out in the open. It was a feeling of freedom they hadn't experienced before. The time they spent together was precious, and love was expressed though a smile, a look, a touch, a word. At school they knew they were rather limited, but they managed to work around its confines. Like so many other nights, Yukito was staying at the Kinomoto's for supper. Fujitaka certainly didn't mind the company, and Yukito made a very pleasant guest. "Itadakimasu!" said a chorus of voices. "Oishii desu," said Yukito, in reference to Fujitaka's cooking. "Arigatou," said the kind man. "I know you eat a lot, Tukisiro-kun, so don't be afraid to ask for more. I made lots." "Hai, totemo oishii!" said Sakura a little enthusiastically. "Baka, kaijuu," huffed Touya. "You hate beef curry." "Atashi...I do not! Mou taku..." Sakura had a very large blush on her cheeks. All Yukito could do was laugh at the scene. It was a familiar one to him now. And one he hoped to always be a part of. ~*~*~*~*~ After dinner, the family had coffee in the living room and just chatted idly about various subjects. It got rather late, and Sakura had to be carried up to her room by her dad. Yukito used the opportunity to excuse himself, and said it was time for him to be getting home. When Touya was sure his dad was upstairs, he suddenly grabbed his friend, and kissed him hard on the lips. "To-ya!" said a surprised Yukito. Touya looked at him seductively. "I wanted to do that all night." Yukito put his arms around Touya's waist. He laughed a little. "But isn't this a little dangerous?" "Maybe, but it makes it more fun." With a grin, Touya went in for a second kiss, this one more passionate. He didn't hear the footsteps coming down the stairs. Fujitaka went to round the corner to the living room, and was greeted with a surprising sight. With a slight blush on his cheeks, he crept back around the corner, and let the couple have their private time. After the long kiss, Yukito said, "I really should get going..." "I know, but I needed something to remember you by." Touya softly touched his partner's face, stroking it gently. Reluctantly, he escorted Yukito to the front door. "I'll see you tomorrow, ne?" asked Yukito. "Yeah, I'll pick you up around five. I've got those tickets to the Asakawa Hiroko concert. It starts at eight, so we'll stop for something to eat first." "Sounds great!" As Yukito bowed to leave, he softly voiced 'suki desu' and then closed the door. Touya sighed. He wanted tomorrow to come a lot sooner. He walked back into the living room, and brought the dishes into the kitchen. As he was doing that, he was surprised to hear his dad's voice. "Touya, can I talk to you for a moment?" "E? Sure, but I was just going to head up to bed..." "This is important." Touya shrugged, and sat down opposite his dad in the living room. "Omedetou na," said Fujitaka. Touya just stared at him blankly. He didn't have a clue what he was talking about. "I see you and Tukisiro-kun are finally a couple." Touya's jaw was practically on the floor. His eyes were wide, and he had a huge sweatdrop. "Well, that is, um....how did you know?" Fujitaka just smiled. "Parents can tell. Just from the way you acted around each other I knew you would eventually get together. I'm glad you made it to that stage in your relationship." "So....then you're okay with it?" Touya asked cautiously. "Sure, why wouldn't I be?" Touya facefaulted again. "There's something I'd like to discuss with you, though. I'm sorry that when we talked about the facts of life I left you totally unprepared. I wasn't even thinking." Touya was the brightest shade of red imaginable. He *was not* having this conversation with his father. He *would not* have this conversation with his father. "Er, that's okay, otoosan. I've pretty much figured things out..." "But I just want to make sure." Touya was sure he was going to die. "I don't know if you're sexually active yet..." Touya shook his head almost violently. He was dead. Dead. Dead. Dead. "But you probably will be soon enough." Even more dead. "I just want to make sure you're using protection, and that you're safe." Touya found he couldn't speak now. He couldn't do much of anything except feel the burning in his cheeks and his sense of being dead. "I trust you and Tukisiro-kun more than anything, but it occurred to me that you might not have all the facts." Touya managing to get some words out. "Don't worry, otoosan. We already have all the information. We'll be fine." "Well, that's good to know," said his still smiling father. "Now, I was just wondering a few things. Are you going to tell Sakura?" "Yeah, eventually. We thought we'd wait for a bit, though. What do you think?" "I think it's up to you to decide when to come out. Whenever you feel comfortable. Though, you have to realise that I'm most likely not the only one who figured it out without any help." Touya thought about that for minute, and he knew his dad was right. That thought kind of scared him. "Is it okay if I go up now?" "Sure," replied his dad. "I hope you have fun on your date tomorrow. I know you'll probably be staying over at Tukisiro-kun's, and that's fine with me." Touya couldn't help but blush at this. He just nodded and went upstairs. 'Staying over.' His dad must think something's going to happen. Touya had to admit that he had thought of that as well. 'Well,' he thought, 'whatever happens happens.' ~*~*~*~*~ <> "Hai?" asked a voice over the intercom. "Kinomoto desu." "Ara, Touya-kun. Yukito will be right out." Touya smiled a little. Yukito had such a sweet grandmother. Yukito came running out of the house and passed the gate. "Hi, To-ya!" Touya had to resist the urge to pull him into a deep kiss right then and there. He remained his calm self. "Yo." "Here, let me put your bag inside the house." Yukito ran back in, and then emerged again. They began walking towards the train station. "Oh, guess what," said Yukito. "Baachan to jiichan are going away for a week." "E?" "Yeah, they're going to stay at my aunt's in Kyoto. They're leaving tonight..." "Hontou?" "Ee." There was an uncomfortable silence for the next few seconds. "So this concert should be pretty fun, eh?" said Yukito enthusiastically. "I hope so. I really want to see Asakawa-san sing in person." More uncomfortable silence. "Yuki?" "Hai?" "Otoosan knows." Yukito stopped walking for a second. He placed his hands on his partner's arm. "Are you okay? Tell me what happened." "No, no, he's fine with it..." Yukito looked relieved. "He might have been too fine with it..." "What do you mean?" "Well..." Touya started to blush again. He was having a difficult time bringing the subject up. "He just wanted to make sure...of things. That we were safe and stuff." Yukito looked quizzically at his friend. Then his eyes went wide and he too had a blush. Touya tried to look away and stare at something far and distant. "Oh...I see." They both stood there for a while, neither sure what the other was thinking or how to react. Suddenly a grin was on Touya's face. "But let's forget all that, and just have a good time. Iku!" Yukito relaxed as well. "Hai!" They were back as before, walking and chatting. Only this time the uncomfortable feeling was gone. They were on their way to a wonderful night full of food and music. Nothing else was on their minds. Well, maybe not *nothing* else... ~*~*~*~*~ The front door clicked shut. Lights began to flicker on in the hallway. Sounds of shoes being taken off could be heard. A man walked into the living room and plopped down on the couch. "Ah, I'm so tired." "Well, maybe if you weren't jumping and screaming through the whole concert...." said his grey haired friend. "Urusei na..." "I'm going to make some coffee; I'll be back in a minute." The concert had been a blast. First they went to this Italian restaurant well-known for their lasagne. Yukito had, of course, ate enough for ten people. Touya couldn't do anything but grin, though. This was *his* Yukito. Now that they were a couple, everything seemed right in the world. He loved everything about his friend, from his caring manner to his annoying habits. The concert itself had been equally enjoyable. Both men were daifan of Asakawa Hiroko, and were really looking forward to seeing her live. "Hai, douzo," said Yukito as he put the coffee on the table in front of Touya. "Arigatou. Ano na, Yuki, you had a good time tonight, right?" "Hai, a really good time. You know, To-ya, I'd have a good time going anywhere with you." the grey haired boy sat closely beside Touya on the couch and sipped his coffee. It was Touya's turn to smile. He hesitated a little, but encircled his arm around his partner's shoulders. The other man looked at him and smiled, putting his head on Touya's shoulder. They sat like that for a long time, just enjoying each other's company. "Yuki..." said Touya in a husky voice. "Hmm?" Yukito was softly dozing in his arms. "What do you think...what would you say to...would you mind..." Touya just couldn't seem to get the words out. "Kuso!" Yukito had a concerned look on his face. "Doushitano, To-ya? Is there something you want to ask me? You know you can ask me anything." Yukito smiled warmly at him. Touya looked at his partner with great love. How could he ever dream to find someone so caring, patient and compassionate? He developed a large blush on his cheeks. "Well... I was wondering if you'd like to make love..." Yukito leaned up and kissed his partner deeply. In a very seductive voice he said, "I thought you'd never ask." That was all Touya needed to unleash all his inhibitions. He pulled Yukito onto him, and the pair began a war of the tongues. Touya loved the sensation of having Yukito on top of him. He used his hands to brush through his partner's hair and gently massage him on his back. Yukito had his hands on his partner's sides and was beginning to pull up Touya's shirt. Touya offered no resistance, and started to do the same to Yukito. Pretty soon many articles of clothing were on the ground, and the men were left only in their briefs. Both were panting slightly. "Ne, I guess neither of us has done this before," said Yukito. "Well, there's a first time for everything. I'm up for a little exploration, how about you?" Yukito smiled. "Hai." Yukito lead him to his bedroom, and laid down on the futon bed. Touya took his cue, and knelt over his friend. He began his assault by rubbing Yukito's chest with his hands. He used slow circles and paid special attention to two erect nipples. As the massage continued, Touya got lower and lower on his partner's body. Eventually he was at the top of the briefs. He eyed them for a moment, and then took them off in one motion. There, exposed, laid the most beautiful sight Touya had ever seen. Yukito's good-sized manhood was semi-erect and was getting warmer every second. Touya looked up for a moment to see his friend. Yukito shook his head in consent. Touya started by gently stroking the penis with his hands. He got several moans from Yukito in return. He picked up the pace by pumping him a little bit. This elicited several more moans. Finally, the penis fully erect, Touya went down on his friend. He sucked, licked, and gently bit along its length. Deep moans could now be heard from Yukito. Touya used his hands to caress his partner's butt and gently stroke his balls. All the while he kept sucking faster and deeper. Every thrust was matched by Yukito's hips, and would earn him a strained cry from his friend. "To-ya..." struggled Yukito. "faster, please....ah! Please don't stop... To-ya, I'm going to..." Touya realised what was going to happen and let the cum shoot into his mouth. Yukito's hot flesh jolted several times, and Touya had to work at keeping control. When it was over, Yukito let out a long sigh. "That was, that was....I can't even describe that! How did you become so good?" Touya just looked at him slyly. "I have a few tricks up my sleeve." After a moment's rest, Yukito took the initiative, and starting kissing Touya on the neck and all down his shoulders. He stopped a few times to nibble on his ears. While he was doing this, he lightly fondled Touya's manhood through his briefs. Touya was already quite aroused. Yukito could feel the burning heat pressing against him. He kissed Touya passionately on the mouth a few more times before making short work of the briefs, and concentrating more on Touya's sensitive area. Yukito looked at the gorgeous piece of man in front of him. "Let's see if I can do the same..." He began by slowing licking the penis from tip to bottom. He coated the entire organ in his saliva. Touya was now lying back with his eyes shut, just enjoying the sensations. Yukito put the tip inside his mouth, and then went down as far as he could go. A deep moan escaped from Touya's lips. Yukito also used his tongue playfully while going up and down on him, which gave Touya added pleasure. Yukito picked up the pace a little, and rubbed the inner thighs of Touya. Touya couldn't help but lift his hips off the bed to try and immerse himself in his friend's mouth. He could feel a building sensation inside him. The pleasure was more frequent and had a greater intensity. He grunted, and forced Yukito to go even faster by picking up the pace with his own hips. "Oh, Yuki..." Those were the only words Touya could muster before he jerked and felt like a flood was being released from him. He closed his eyes, and started to softly breathe. A slight breeze was coming in from one of the windows, which felt good on his hot skin. Yukito crept up to the head of the bed and laid down beside his partner. Touya used his arms to protectively encircle Yukito. "Suki yo." "Un. Suki desu." ~*~*~*~*~ The following Monday the pair had gone to school as usual. They found it increasingly difficult, however, to keep up the pretence that they were nothing more than friends. They wanted to hold hands. They wanted to share an embrace. But most of all they wanted others to know the love they shared. However, many of the students had noticed the closeness between the two men. Some thought it was nothing more than friendship. Some thought it was like a brotherly bond. Others saw through the pretence, though, and guessed at their relationship. Touya, being the captain of the soccer team, was one of the most popular and well-respected men in the school. No one would dare say anything about it, because they knew he had many supporters who would protect him no matter what. The same went for Yukito. Although he didn't belong to any clubs, he often helped at a great many of them and had lots of friends. At lunch time, the two were eating together on the grass as usual. They were busy talking and laughing, and didn't really notice a girl approaching them. "Sumimasen." "Ah, Maron-san," said Yukito. "Do you mind if I join you?" The two men shared a glance. "No, that's fine," said Touya a little cautiously. The three chatted idly about school-related topics for a little while. Suddenly, Maron changed the subject to her real goal of joining the pair. "Ne, I've known both of you for over two years now, right?" "Ee," said Yukito. "And I've known you, Touya, since Junior High." "Yeah..." "So, we're pretty good friends, deshou?" "Sure, Maron-san, what are you getting at?" asked Yukito. "Just that...it's okay if you tell some of us." She had a bright blush on her cheeks. Touya and Yukito stared at her for a few seconds, and then at each other. "What do you mean?" asked Touya. "I think you know what I mean," she said in a soft voice. "How about I go first? You know Miyako from class 3-A?" "Of course," they both said. "Well... Her and I..." Touya stared at her wide-eyed. "Uso..." "Hontou da yo," she said in a cheerful voice. "Omedetou!" said Yukito smiling. "Demo, why are you telling us this?" "I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. You have friends all around you who will support you no matter what. And I wanted to tell you that you could talk to Miyako and I anytime. Actually, I think we might learn from each other if we talk about it." Yukito clasped Touya's hand. "Thank you so much. It's great to know that you care about us so much. We've been killing ourselves trying to keep it a secret. Even if we don't want the entire school knowing, it's wonderful to share our joy with our friends." Touya added, "And I think we would be interested in talking with you and Miyako-san. We might be able to offer each other some advice. Thanks, Maron. You've always been a great friend." She nodded and smiled. "It was no trouble. I know what it's like to think you're all alone in the world. I just wanted to remind you that you had friends! Well, thank you for letting me have lunch with you. Oh, by the way, I always thought you two made a cute couple. Ja ne!" She bowed slightly and walked off to find Miyako and her other friends. "Well," said Touya, "I guess otoosan was right. Other people did guess without any help." "It feels good, though, doesn't it? Knowing our friends will support us." "Yeah. Though I was shocked to hear about Maron and Miyako-san. I never would have guessed." Yukito nudged his lover in the ribs. "Sometimes you're not very observant, you know that?" "Hey, I think I'm very observant..." he said while taking Yukito's face into his hands, "...of the most important thing to me." "To-ya..." Yukito closed his eyes and let his lover slide his tongue into his mouth. They were in a pretty secluded area, so there was little chance of anyone seeing them. There was a part of them, though, that didn't really care, and was secure in the knowledge of being loved and accepted by those close to them. ~*~*~*~*~ After school that day Touya was in the locker room getting changed for soccer practice. Most of the team was already out on the field kicking the ball around. As he closed his locker, and was about to leave, a hand grabbed him from behind. "Oi, Kinomoto. We have to talk." It was Yamaguchi Hiroya, a member of the team, and one of Touya's closest friends. "What's up, Yamaguchi?" Hiroya leaned against the lockers with his arms folded at his chest. "You know, it's not fair." "E?" said a confused Touya. "Basically every girl in this school goes nuts over you, but all that attention is wasted, 'cause there's no way you'll ever go after any of them." For the second time that day, Touya was stunned. "Hey, are you going to say anything?" "How did you find out?" was all he could manage. "Come on, you'd have to be blind not to see anything going on between you and Tukisiro-kun." Touya didn't know what to think. On the one hand, he was terrified, because this could mean the end of the friendship between him and Yamaguchi and the end of his being on the soccer team. But on the other hand, his friend wasn't yelling at him or anything, so he took it as a good sign. "So what are you going to do?" he asked bluntly. "Oi oi, relax, Kinomoto. I'm not going to do anything. Personally, I can't picture being attracted to another guy, but, hey, whatever floats your boat." He patted Touya on the back. 'Yamaguchi's a good guy,' thought Touya. "Thanks. For the record, I never had any feelings towards you or anyone else on the team. I hope you don't feel weird about it, but nothing's really changed." "Hey, I'm not some narrow-minded jock," laughed Hiroya. "You're still the same Kinomoto Touya, so I don't see why I'd treat you any different. I just wanted to clear the air a bit between us. I didn't want you to think you'd have to keep it a secret from me. And I wanted to let you know that I'd stick up for you if you were ever in a jam." "You're a good friend, Yamaguchi," said Touya. "Bah, I know you'd do the same for me. Now," he said while throwing a soccer ball at his friend, "let's get out there or we'll be late for practice." Touya couldn't help smiling at his friend. The acceptance he had got from his friends was more than he ever imagined. ~*~*~*~*~ Touya again laid in a darkened room with his arms tucked behind his head. Only this time he happened to be completely nude and was laying beside his lover. He was contemplating various things, and was looking off into the distance. "To-ya," said Yukito in a soft voice. "What are you thinking about?" "About making mad, passionate love to you." Yukito laughed. "Already? But we just finished! Seriously, you look like something's troubling you." Touya sighed. This had been bothering him for a while, and the time had come to discuss it with his partner. "I was thinking about Sakura. I think it's time she knew." "I was wondering when this subject would come up. Yeah, I think we're ready to tell her. With the way things are going, I would hate for her to find out on her own." "How do you think she'll react, though?" Touya had genuine concern on his face. "I can't be sure, but she's your sister. She loves you unconditionally, and always will. I think a little shock will probably be natural, but I don't think you have anything to worry about. This is Sakura-chan we're talking about." "Okay, then it's decided. She's really the last one left. My dad knows, your grandparents now know; they're great, by the way. So Sakura is the only one left in the dark. I guess tomorrow is as good a time as any. What do you say?" "Sure, tomorrow is fine with me. Now," said Yukito in an aroused voice, "I think I need to get you out of this serious mood..." He moved over top of his partner. "There's still a lot of time left tonight..." Touya smiled at his lover. He pulled Yukito as close as possible, and whispered in his ear, "I won't let you go tonight." ~*~*~*~*~ (don't worry, there's still one more lemon scene. ^_^) "Aaaa! Ii tenki!" said a cheerful Kinomoto Sakura as she glided down the road on her rollerblades. The sun was shining brightly, the birds were singing, and the weather had really started to warm up. She was on her way home from cheer-leading practice. Sakura had become the star of team. She could toss her baton better than anyone, and she was the best gymnast of the bunch. She loved cheer-leading so much. It gave her a chance to be with her friends while at the same time enjoying the sport. She wasn't currently thinking about cheer-leading, though. Tomoyo-chan had invited her to her house tomorrow. Actually, she had invited Syaoran, too, which Sakura thought was a bit weird. Syaoran... How is it that he had become such an integral part of her life? Of course, there was the business of catching the Clow Cards and Sakura Cards, but that was all over now. Why were they still hanging around together? 'Hoe...' she thought to herself. 'Moshikashite... Iya iya! Zettai dame!' She couldn't think of Syaoran in *that* way, could she? After all, she had Yukito to think about. 'Yukito-san...' She closed her eyes and put her hands on her heart. Although he was older, she couldn't help liking him. He was just such a nice guy, and cute to boot. 'Oniichan has good taste in friends.' She continued on her way home, thinking about nothing but being happy about going to Tomoyo's. ~*~*~*~*~ Touya paced in the hallway. Every so often he looked up at the clock to see what time it was. Thirty seconds had passed. Sakura was due home in the next couple of minutes, and he was a nervous wreck. "To-ya," said Yukito calmly. "There's no use getting all worked up about it. "Hora, come wait on the couch with me." Yukito patted the spot beside him. Touya was about to say something when he heard the front door click open. Like a rocket, he shot into the living room and sat beside his friend. He didn't want Sakura to know he was waiting for her. "Tadaima!" she shouted while taking off her skates. "Okaeri," called Touya from the living room. "Oi, kaijuu, come into the living room for a sec." Sakura came stomping down the hall and into the living room. She had a very annoyed look on her face. "Sakura wa kaijuu ja nai mon!!!" Suddenly she looked up and saw Yukito sitting there as well. Her entire being changed at this realisation, and she totally forgot about the insult her brother had given her. "Aa, Yukito-san! I didn't know you were here." She tried to smile to hide her embarrassment. "Ojamashimasu," he said kindly. She walked over to the couch facing the pair and sat down. "What did you want me for?" Touya stared at her and blushed. He tried to stop, but he couldn't. "Ano...etto...ja...ano..." He couldn't get any words to come out of his mouth either. Sakura sweatdropped. "Nani?" Yukito decided to take the lead. "Ne, Sakura-chan, you love your brother a lot, right?" Sakura was a little shocked at this question. "Well...yeah, I guess. He can be a real *pain* sometimes, though." "Of course he can, but that's one of the reasons to love him." "Oi!" said Touya in protest. Yukito just smiled. "Sakura-chan, what do you know about love?" It was Sakura's turn to get a huge blush. She put one of her arms behind her head. "Love? Well, I know when you love somebody a lot that's all you want to think about, and you want to spend the rest of your life with them. Love can be really beautiful, like how otoosan loves okaasan." Sakura could do nothing but stare at Yukito's lovely face. "That's right, and love can overcome anything right? Nothing should be able to come between two people who love each other." "Mochiron! If two people love each other, anything or anyone couldn't tear that love apart." "That's good," said Yukito. "And you'll be happy for your brother when he finds someone to love?" Sakura thought this line of questioning was getting weird. Why was she talking about love with Yukito? It all seemed so strange, but she answered the questions anyway. "Of course I'll be happy. He's my oniichan." "Well, what would you say if he already found that someone?" "E?! Oniichan, is that true? Do you have a koibito?" Touya coughed into his hand. "Yeah." "Waa..." said Sakura in astonishment. "Dare desu ka?" Touya reached over and took Yukito's hand into his own. "I'm right here, Sakura-chan," said the white haired boy. Pain. Immense pain. Her heart was throbbing. Her head was spinning. The world had surely gone off it's axis. It surely had. She clenched her hand to her chest, and brought her other hand up to her head. She was staring at the couple with a look of confusion on her face. Never in her life had she been more confused. 'Did Yukito-san just say he was oniichan's lover? Lover? Yukito-san!' Sakura was so caught up in her thoughts that she didn't realise that tears were rolling down her face. Touya got up off the couch and kneeled down in front of her. He took a hold of one of her hands, and gently wiped the tears away. "Sakura... I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." It took Sakura a minute to register what her brother had just said. "Oniichan... You've been in love with Yukito-san for all this time?" "Yes." "Why did you wait so long to tell me?" "I didn't...that is, we really haven't been a couple for that long. We wanted to wait a while, because we wanted to test how other people would react, and we wanted to get comfortable with each other. I'm sorry, Sakura. The last thing I wanted to do was cause you pain. But I think we did the right thing in telling you." "No, that's okay," said Sakura, still crying a bit. "I'm glad you did tell me." She looked up in the direction of her brother's friend. "Yukito-san..." Yukito wore a concerned look on his face. He also knelt down in front of her. "Sakura-chan, I want you to know that you'll always be one of the most important people in my life. Please, never forget that. And I don't want to lose our friendship. I can still take you out for cake and ice-cream, ne?" Sakura smiled a little bit. "Okay." A part of her cried out, 'no, this isn't fair! I love Yukito-san!' But a more rational part of her quietly said, 'your brother is happy, that's the most important thing. And you haven't been thinking of Yukito-san in "that way" as much anymore. Could it be that someone else has taken over your thoughts?' While she fought this internal battle, she managed to say a few things. "I'm...I'm a bit shocked at this news. I mean, I knew you two were friends, but I had no idea... I...I think I'll need to think about this for a while. Is that okay?" "Of course it is," said Touya. "But...you're not...offended by us, are you?" "What? Why would I be offended? Oniichan, we grew up with otoosan having his gay friends from the university over fairly often. Believe me, I could care less that you're both men." Touya let out a big sigh while Yukito giggled. "Arigatou, Sakura-chan, that's good to know," said Yukito. She gave a large smile, and said sincerely, "Omedetou!" ~*~*~*~*~ Touya opened the door to Sakura's room slowly. She had gone to bed several hours ago, but he just wanted to check up on his sister. He was a little worried about how she took the news. She seemed almost cheerful, but he knew she tried to hide the pain that must be in her heart. As he crept closer to her bed, she appeared to be sleeping peacefully. He turned to leave, but heard a voice speak. "Oniichan, is that you?" "Yeah. What are you still doing up?" "I...couldn't sleep. I've just been thinking about so many things." Touya sat down on the edge of his sister's bed and faced her. "What's on your mind?" "Well...it's sort of about Yukito-san," she said while trying to hide a blush. "I know this must be hard on you. I wish there was a way around it, but we really thought you deserved to know the truth. I'm sorry, we didn't want to cause you pain. I know you must feel like you've lost someone very important to you." Sakura nodded her head. "That's definitely part of it. But I sort of surprised myself. I didn't take the news as bad as I expected I would. To tell you the truth, I haven't been thinking of Yukito-san as much anymore. That thought has scared me to death, because I thought I really loved him." Touya smiled at her. "When you're young, you think a lot of things could be love. I don't pretend to know your feelings, but maybe someone else succeeded in stealing your heart." Sakura really blushed at this. "Be..betsuni.... I...don't think so." She was lying and her brother knew it. He gave her a little wink. "Whatever you say, kaijuu." Now she sat straight up in her bed. "Mou! Kaijuu ja nai!!" Touya put his hand to her forehead. "You're right. You're growing into a beautiful young woman. Sakura, come talk to me about anything that's troubling you, all right?" "Okay." She was looking up to her big brother at this moment. He would take care of her. He always would. This thought comforted her, and she smiled at him. "Now, it's way past a little girl's bed time." "What? First I'm a young woman, and now I'm a little girl? No fair!" He sighed. "Just go to sleep. Oyasumi." "Oyasumi, oniichan. Arigatou....daisuki." Touya grinned. He pulled the covers over her and left the room, closing the door shut behind him. ~*~*~*~*~ The light of the moon shone down on the Tukisiro home. Crickets could be heard lightly chirping and a lone dog was howling several blocks away. Kinomoto Touya's bicycle was leaning against the side of the house. Inside the house, light was coming from the bathroom window. Touya let out a soft moan as he lowered himself into the large bathtub. He closed his eyes and put his towel on his head. His muscles were very sore due to a hard soccer practice. The warm water relaxed him completely, and made him almost sleepy. "To-ya," said the boy beside him in the bath, "you can't go to sleep just yet. I've got a lot planned for us tonight. After all, it's not too often ojiichan and obaasan are away." Yukito's hands gently traced circles on Touya's chest. He seemed to be going lower and lower. A smile crept onto Touya's face. "Oi...a star soccer player needs his rest, you know." A look of determination took over Yukito. He whispered, "I don't think you'll say that after this." His circling hand suddenly grabbed his lover's penis, and started slowly stroking it up and down. "Mmmm, you're right. I take back what I said." Touya lowered his voice even further. "I'll make you a part of me tonight." He leaned down and passionately kissed his friend. When he finally came up for air, he began kissing and sucking on his neck. "If we keep this us," giggled Yukito, "both of us will drown. Why don't we move to a more comfortable location." Touya almost whimpered when Yukito released his manhood, but he was assured that even better things were to come. As they got out of the tub, they dried each other off slowly, creating sort of an erotic dance. Once in Yukito's bedroom, they resumed their fondling of each other. After several minutes of touching and kissing, Yukito wanted to take it to the next level. "Are you ready?" "Definitely." Touya took this opportunity to kiss his lover again before getting down on all fours on the bed. He could feel cold lubricant being applied to the area around his anus. Yukito gently massaged it in; he wanted this to be as pain free for Touya as possible. Yukito opened the condom package, and rolled the latex over his shaft. Even though neither of them had any other sexual partners, one really couldn't be too safe. After he was done, he applied some lubricant to himself. Yukito looked down at his partner who was on his hands and knees. "Are you comfortable?" "I'm fine, don't worry about me. But I won't be able to last long." Yukito could see from how erect Touya's penis was that he wasn't lying. He gently spread apart Touya's cheeks and positioned himself at his entrance. With one swift push he was fully inside. Touya clenched the pillows in a death grip and firmly shut his eyes. "Daijoubu?" asked Yuktio, concerned. Slowly Touya let go of the pillows as the pain subsided. "Yeah, I'm okay. Mmmm, Yuki it feels so good. Give it to me hard." Yukito smiled. "Ryokai!" He grabbed onto Touya's hips, and started moving in and out. The lubricant was doing it's job nicely, and was making the job considerably easier. Yukito suddenly smiled, and realised there was another opportunity. With his right hand, he grasped Touya manhood, and began pumping it at the same speed. Touya's eyes suddenly flew open as he felt the new pleasure come to him. "Yuki... you're amazing," he said between grunts. Yukito's own pleasure was driving him on. His rock hard member went faster and faster in and out of Touya. At the same time his hand went faster and faster working his friend's manhood. He could feel his penis getting hotter and the pleasure was mounting. With each thrust his balls smacked against his friend's butt, driving him almost mad. Everything was coming to a peak, he could just feel it. "Ugh, To-ya," he managed. Meanwhile, Touya could feel the heat inside him grow. The sensation of Yukito inside him was driving him wild. He was also well aware of his own member being pumped vigorously. It was clear to him that the end was near. "Yu...ki... Onegai..." Suddenly, Yukito exploded inside Touya making him squeeze Touya's member hard. This in turn sent Touya well over the edge, and spewed cum all over the bed and Touya's chest. Yukito slowly let go of the penis and withdrew from Touya. Touya flopped down on the bed, too exhausted to do anything else. After disposing of the condom, Yukito laid down beside him, softly panting. "Well, how was it?" Touya responded with a deep kiss. "You, my friend, are the best." Yukito laughed. "It's my turn next time." "Who said we were done?" said Touya slyly. ~*~*~*~*~ A blue car pulled slowly into the driveway. A figure got out, and walked up to the entrance of the house. The door flew open before he had the chance to try and open it himself. "Papa!" said the small boy of about five. "Okaeri!" "Tadaima," he said as he picked his son up in his arms. "Okaeri!" called a voice from the kitchen. The white haired man peeked his head in. He was welcomed with the sight of his partner in an apron cooking supper. He smiled, and walked up behind him, putting his arms around his waist. "What's for dinner?" The other man gave his lover a peck on the cheek. "Nabe udon to tempura." "Mmm, oishii so! By the way, you look really cute in that apron, To-ya." "You know I only wear it for you, Yuki." The two were about to kiss when Taro, their adopted son, came bounding in. "Toochan, papa, mite!" He held up a picture of their family drawn in crayon. Yukito bent down and patted his son on the head. "It's really good, Taro. Arigatou ne." Taro beamed. "Look, I even drew aunt Sakura and uncle Syaoran!" "It's wonderful," said Touya as he stuck it onto the fridge with some magnets. "Did you know they're coming to supper tonight?" "Hontou? Wai!" Just then the doorbell rang, and Taro ran to greet them. A very pregnant Sakura walked into the house with a concerned Syaoran closely following. "Hello, Taro-kun," she said sweetly. "I brought you a present." Sakura dug into her purse and produced some anime trading cards. "Waa! Arigatou!!" said an excited Taro. "Wow, kaijuu, you're getting bigger every time I see you." Sakura just laughed. "I feel like I'm about to burst." "Li-san, take her into the living room before she really does." Syaoran nodded and complied. After everyone was settled, and coffee had been made, they could relax and have a conversation. "How are things at the hospital, Kinomoto-san?" asked Syaoran. "Oh, pretty good. We're pretty busy right now, but I love the work and helping people makes it all worth it." "Pretty soon classes will be switching, won't they, Yukito-san?" asked Sakura. "Ee. I'll be getting a new crop of Grade fours. It's always sad when they pass to the next grade, but I'm looking forward to seeing new faces. What about you, Sakura? I hear you're still working in your condition?" Syaoran got an annoyed look on his face. "Yes, she is. I keep telling her that she'll tire herself out, but she won't listen." "Demo," said Sakura, "I've cut my hours down to mornings only, and Tomoyo-chan makes me take a break every ten minutes. It doesn't feel like working at all. Oh, and after I have the baby, Tomoyo-chan's got it all planned. There's already a day-care in the building, but she's going to schedule my day around feedings and stuff. She's really quite cute about it. And she *insisted* on getting all the cute outfits for the baby to wear." "Wow, Tomoyo-chan took over the roll as president rather well, didn't she," said Yukito. "Yeah, she's a real natural for the job. I'm so lucky to be working for her." Just then Touya noted that dinner was ready, and they all got up to eat the delicious meal. ~*~*~*~*~ Later that night when Sakura and Syaoran had gone home and Taro was soundly sleeping in bed, Touya and Yukito took the time to just enjoy the rest of the evening in peace. "Ne," said Yukito, "when we first got together, did you think things would turn out this way?" "You mean 'happily every after?' We have been very lucky, haven't we? First there was the joy of just finding each other, and then of acceptance by friends and family, then of our marriage, and finally of Taro. You know, I had no idea having a child would bring such love. I really wasn't prepared for it." Yukito looked at his wedding band. "We have been very lucky, and I wouldn't trade this life for anything in the world. I love you, To-ya, and I always will." "Even through the rough times we've always been there for each other. Yuki, I love you more than I can possibly express." Touya looked into his partner's eyes and took hold of one of his hands. The two met for a deeply passionate kiss that would surely lead to other things a little later that night. OWARI ~*~*~*~*~ Dekida! ^_^ I told you it would be pretty mushy. ^^ I wrote this fanfic out of frustration. I was tired of searching and searching for Touya/Yukito fics and finding almost nothing. I could only find two authors writing about them. So I decided to take matters into my own hands, and write what I wanted to read. ^_^ I hope you enjoyed the story. Some of you may have noticed the references to various anime throughout the fic. If you want, email me where you think they're from. Some are pretty obscure, though. ^^ Those of you who know who Maron and Miyako really are will probably have my head, but I thought it was cute (though I know it would never happen). ^^ For the romanization of the names, I used what appears in the manga. Personally, I'd rather use Tsukishiro and Shaoran, but CLAMP is god, so they know best. :) Special thanks to Kittyhawk and Zoisite no Miko for proofreaing my fanfic for me! Doumo arigatou gozaimasu! ^_^ If you want to send feedback, my email address is andrea.doolan@utoronto.ca. Music I was listening to while writing this: CardCaptor Sakura OST 2, Shoujo Kakumei Utena OST 1 & 2, and Sailormoon Maiden's Poem Collection. Completed: August 8th, 1999. Because some of you may be confused, here's a list of Japanese words/phrases: rurouni - (in this context) a person who doesn't pass the entrance exam, so they have to wait a year to try again saa - I don't know (roughly, in this context) wai - yay! waa - sort of like wai, but it's more of a surprised wow bentou - (lunch) box of food tadaima - said when returning home (I'm home) okaeri - said to the person when they return home (welcome home/back) chikushou/kuso - swear words (roughly); chikushou is a bit worse ano/etto - hesitation words (um...) kore - here atashi - informal feminine way of saying "I" omae - rough masculine way of saying "you" ore - rough masculine way of saying "I" suki - love na/ne - sort of like "eh." "Na" is more masculine and "ne" more feminine chotto - a little bit sou ne - that's right (roughly, but could mean slightly different things in another context) oishii - delicious totemo - very kaijuu - monster (Touya's pet name for Sakura) baka - stupid, idiot mou taku - said in exasperation (sort of like "honestly!") e? - what? ee - yes omedetou - congratulations hontou - true iku - let's go urusei - shut up (rough masculine) douzo - please (take this/have this/come this way/etc) doushitano - what's the matter? un - yes (more like "yep!") sumimasen - excuse me uso - lie (but in the context I used it it means "no way...") demo - but ii tenki - good weather moshikashite - "could it be that..." iya - no zettai - absolute dame - no/don't ojamashimasu - said by a guest entering a house mochiron - of course koibito - lover (koi means love and bito means person) oyasumi - good night daijoubu - are you all right? ryokai - roger! onegai - please "ore...ore wa omae ga...suki desu" - I...I...love you "Ima no koe wa nan desu ka?" - what was that voice just now? "Dare desu ka?" - who is it? "nademonai. Terebi dake" - Nothing. Just the TV "kaijuu ja nai" - I'm not a monster