Silvernyte, the Silver Werewolf of Chaos
AIM = SilveWere ICQ# 12232430
Holder of chibi-Tannims and chibi-Na'hemyr gryphs
Keeper of The Bag of Chibi-Amelia Gryphon Snacks (tm)
Keeper of the Silvernyte and Alter-egos' Slayers Den
( http://www.crosswinds.net/~slayersfan/frames.html )
And un-official Dilgear no Miko


    [ Part 2: "Attached Text" ]

"Blame it on the Moon"
by Silvernyte (CyberShade@cybergal.com)

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alright, this sucks, this is prolly the last go at a lemon
I'll ever do. please let me know what you think. I hate this
but then I ususaly hate my stuff. This did start a seiries I
have up at http://www2.crosswinds.net/~slayersfan/truths.html
called "Truths Revealed".
Um.... enjoy!
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Zelgadis looked out the window at the moon shining high in 
the sky and sighed. It was on nights like these he could set 
aside the things he told himself, the things he forced himself 
to believe, and realize at least some truths that eluded him 
in the day. Things seemed so still, - so calm - that he could 
almost believe there was a place for him, somewhere, even as he 
is now. He could almost consider speaking his heart, but he knew 
that with the dawning of the sun it would sear away whatever 
thoughts made him think he could do so. He sighed again and stepped
out of the room to walk to the balcony to enjoy the night air only
to find Lina already there.

He wandered to the bench and sat beside Lina silently and she just 
said "Beautiful," with a sigh.

He just nodded and answered, "Yes, it is a beautiful night," not
understanding she was referring to him and how he looked with 
the moonlight shining on him.

"Zel," she said quietly. "Do you ever wonder if what you thought 
you wanted most was... I don't know, worthless, useless, 
unnecessary?" She stared straight at the moon in deep thought.

"On nights like these, yeah." He answered honestly. "Sometimes I 
even wonder why I search for my cure with such obsession."

Suddenly she looked right at him and they locked eyes. After a 
minute she spoke softly, "Maybe that's because you don't need one."

Zel looked away and blushed, how could she say that? He was a 
freak, wasn't he? But somehow she seemed to forget what he was. 
He smiled as he thought about how he had been before he met her. 
She brought him friendship, laughter, fun, someone to remind him 
there was more to life than moping around. Then he spoke, "Maybe 
you're right."

He knew he couldn't imagine who he would have been without her, 
or could he? Oh, he'd have truly become a monster, caring only for 
his cure. And he realized that meant that he'd be every bit the 
monster he feared people saw him as, and even if he did turn his 
body human again his soul would have became a monster's.

Zel looked at Lina and saw her smile, and without thinking smiled 
back. He knew before, even when he was human, he'd never have smiled
so openly. He thought to himself, 'On a night like tonight you could
blame it on the moon.'

"Sometimes I wonder what I'm looking for," Lina said suddenly. "Or 
why I'm even looking at all."

"Maybe you've already found it," Zel said in response, "And you 
just haven't realized it yet." Then they stared at each other.

Even as he saw her smile at that he saw the pain and doubt written
on her face. He then knew, consciously, what a part of him had known
since he first saw her. He knew of the pain inside her that drove 
her desperately to search for something she couldn't put a name to. 
His heart reached out to her and he placed a hand on her shoulder. 
"And if you haven't, I hope you find it soon." Then he leaned 
forward and kissed her, he was somewhat surprised when she started 
to kiss back.

Almost hungrily the kiss deepened and they embraced, then suddenly 
she broke the kiss and moved her head to kiss his ear a few times 
before speaking, "I think I found it." Then she kissed his ear a 
few more times, "And did anyone ever tell you that you have the 
cutest ears?"

He grinned and laughed softly, "No, no one's ever told me that 
until now." He could barely believe it, she cared for him - loved 
him even! He felt so happy he was sure he should have burst.

'Gods,' he wondered, 'how could I have ever lived before this?' 
They way he felt so suddenly... alive, made him wonder if what 
he had been doing before wasn't just simply existing. But what 
was the point on wondering about the past when there was so much 
to do. Now that there was so much to live for now that he had 
found a place for himself, just as he is. He smiled contentedly.

"Zel," she whispered into his ear. "I love you."

Zelgadis blinked and smiled. Yes, this was love. Like nothing he 
could have imagined before, love looking straight to the soul 
and binding two together into something so much more spectacular 
and wonderful than anything else. Something he felt, as he knew 
she felt that he could not again live without. He embraced her, 
her head nuzzling into his chest as his fingers stroked her soft 
hair. "I love you too Lina, beloved."

As Lina and Zelgadis sat in the moonlight Lina snuggled even closer to
Zel causing him to sit perfectly still, unsure of what to do next. Lina
noticed his stillness and slowly looked up into his incredibly blue 
eyes. "Zel?" she asked softly.

His eyes shut and he took a deep breath. "Lina," he answered, his 
voice trying to take the cool impassive tone he usually used only to 
have doubt, fear, and something else spill into it. "The way things 
look like they might be heading, things could get pretty... intimate. 
And with me as I am, I'm not sure..." he tried to say before Lina 
silenced him with a kiss.

Both Lina and Zelgadis were filled with the intense joy of knowing the 
one they loved did love them back. Even as Lina broke the kiss and just 
sat there staring into Zel's eyes, and him staring back, they felt 
their hearts start to race and a hidden, burning need began to stir
within them.

A chill breeze suddenly blew past the two and Lina shivered slightly.
"Maybe we should go in, if it's getting too cold for you. Get out of 
this wind?" Zel suggested, wrapping his cape around Lina as he held her 
closer.

Lina smiled and nodded, slowly putting one arm around him as he rose 
helping her up as well. "Can we go to your room? We could talk or 
something," Lina asked. Their eyes met and after a moment Zelgadis 
smiled and nodded. As they reached his room Zel walked ahead to open
the door, letting Lina in first. Lina walked in making her way to the 
bed and sat carefully at the end of it. A moment later Zel sat beside 
her.

Zel began to move one arm around her waist so that he could hold her 
close only to have her wrap her arms around his neck before she kissed 
him. Zel's eyes opened wide for a moment as he felt her tongue part his
lips and enter his mouth, but then he closed them and bringing his
other arm around her waist kissed back.

After a moment his lips left hers as they left a trail of kisses 
towards her ear. He kissed it softly, running his tongue along it 
before he began trailing kisses down her neck, savoring the taste of
her skin. "Zel," Lina said breathlessly. "Will you..."

"Lina," he said stopping the kiss to look into her eyes. "I could hurt
you."

"Please Zel. I... I love you. And I want to... to be with you," her 
eyes gazed pleadingly into his and he sighed before pulling her close
again.

"If that is what you want," he whispered almost soundlessly into her 
ear as he moved her back to his lap. His lips met hers again and they
kissed both deeply and hungrily as he removed both their capes and 
began to caress her small breasts.

Lina made a soft moan of pleasure as her hands began trying to tug his
shirt off. Carefully he removed her from his lap and stood up, pulling
off his shirt. Lina's eyes grew wide as she saw him shirtless with the 
light of the full moon framing him. He turned away unsure of why 
exactly she was staring at him, worrying she changed her mind. He shut
his eyes wondering what to do.

"Zel," she said softly, breaking his trance. As he turned to look at
his love he saw she had taken her shirt off, leaving herself bare from
the waist up like he now was. "You look... wonderful." she assured him
as he sat down beside her. He kissed her as her hands began wandering
over his bare back and chest, her fingers softly circling the pebbles
embedded in his blue skin.

Now Zel moaned, then began a trail of kisses down her neck as his hands
grabbed her breasts, his thumbs giving her nipples the same treatment 
she was giving the pebbles in his skin. Suddenly they shifted their 
positions so that they laid on the bed, Zel on top of Lina, careful not
to let her feel his fill weight.

Slowly he began trailing kisses down her, stopping at her breast to 
take one of her nipples in his mouth letting his tongue caress it as
one hand stayed on the other breast. The other moved down her stomach,
caressing her there before he started to remove her pants. Lina moaned 
in pleasure as her fingers pushed into his wiry hair as he finished 
stripping off her pants. His hands moved towards her bare thighs to
caress them and he felt himself grow bolder. His hands went between her 
legs causing Lina to moan his name in pleasure.

He began trailing kisses up her body and towards her mouth, then they
kissed passionately for an eternal moment before Lina's hands moved to
his pants pulling them loose. He helped her slide them all the way off
and then Lina broke the kiss. Her hands trailed down his body, feeling 
every inch of him until her hands came to his hardness. He moaned as 
she took it in her hand, first squeezing it lightly, then stroking it.

After a moment she pulled her hands away and looked into Zel's eyes, 
her hands now caressing his strong back. "I love you," she whispered,
her eyes letting him know she was ready.

"I love you too," he whispered back, then entered her. A wave of 
sensations both painful and pleasurable hit them and they gasped.
Slowly they began their motions, reveling in the feeling of being so
intimately connected with each other. Carefully Zel moved so Lina was
on top as their motions sped up. They began to moan each others names
as they neared their climax.

Suddenly their eyes shut tight as a wave of intense pleasure hit them
like a tidal wave and they thrust together almost violently. Lina 
gasped as he felt him spill into her. He wrapped his arms around her 
and her eyes rolled back as they shared their moment of total pleasure.
Suddenly it was over, and Lina lay exhausted on top of an equally spent
Zelgadis. Carefully they separated and Lina shifted her position so
that she laid beside Zel, her arm over his chest and her head on his
shoulder. "Lina..." Zel began in a querying tone.

Lina nuzzled his neck then looked at him, a lazy satisfied, love-filled
grin on her face. "Zel," she whispered. "That was... that was even 
better than I dreamed." Zel looked at her questioningly, not sure what
to say in response to that. Lina kissed him and replied, "When you 
freed me that night, you captured my heart." Zel smiled and held her 
tighter. Soon they fell asleep smiling contentedly.