Whispered Dreams ====================== Destiny by Lord Jadeite DISCLAIMER: "Sailor Moon", all characters and situations, are owned by Naoko Takeuchi and her minions. :-) This story is written as a tribute to the series and not meant to infringe on Ms. Takeuchi's ownership in any way. WARNING!!!! LEMON AHEAD! This fic contains descriptions of sexual acts. If you are a minor, or live in an area which prohibits this type of material, DO NOT READ! "Whispered Dreams" is a story first, and lemon second. It'll go into a lot about the Dark Kingdom, "Destiny" doesn't contain much lemon (and the one scene there is isn't much of one, either. Basically, it's to point out the selfish qualities of one of the parties involved. For really hot lemon, look to Part Three. :-) NOTE: Usagi is 19 in this. Although she still has her faults, she's not the big cry baby she was in her early teens. If anything written here contradicts the series, then think "Parallel Universe". :-) ----------------------------- Usagi looked up out of the window, her slender hands propping up her chin as she regarded the beautiful orange and pink clouds floating in the twilight sky. A small sigh escaped her as the glittering gold of her engagement band caught her eye. "I should be beyond happy right now," she whispered sadly, her full bottom lip thrust out in a pout. Shaking her head slowly, Usagi forced her cloudy blue eyes away from the one tangible promise of what was destined to occur in the morning. "Destined..." Usagi repeated her thought aloud, tasting the word on her tongue. A word that had once held such an incredibly beautiful comfort and fascination for her, now filled the former Sailor Senshi with an emotion akin to dread. Blinking away the tears that suddenly drenched her cheeks, she calmed herself. "Life is such a prison," she complained without rancor as her white fingers traced little patterns over smooth wood of the window sill. "Or at least, my life is." As a bird cooed nearby into the slight April breeze tumbling through the leaves, Usagi sat there quietly as she watched all control of her life slip away. "Not," she sighed again as the last of the sun's rays escaped from the darkening sky, "that I ever had control in the first place." The urge to break down into tears almost overwhelmed her, but she couldn't. She wasn't sure what it was, but *something* just refused to give. For five years I've been engaged to Mamoru, Usagi thought, an ironic smile stealing its way to her lips. "He's been everything to me since I was 14," she mummured as she stretched her long legs. "Simply everything." While other girls spent their teens struggling with school and engaging in a mad pursuit of every conceivable boy in hopes of capturing Mr. Right, Usagi had been assured by the universe that she never had to worry for her Destiny was waiting for her. It had all been ordained in the dream of a thousand years. A thousand years before, a thousand years hence, it really made no difference. In one time, she was the betrothed of Earth's Prince Endymion, and in the other, she ruled with a King of the same name at her side. When she had been a girl of 14, Usagi had embraced that fate with all her heart, but now, the nineteen year old woman she had become wished desperately for Destiny to forsake her and allow her to make her own mistakes. "Why can't I?" "Why can't you what?" a feminine voice responded, a tad impatiently. With surprise written in her eyes, Usagi turned towards the black cat who was currently lying on her bed. "I don't know... Didn't see you in here," Usagi mentioned, a blonde eyebrow raised in query. Luna shrugged as she absentmindedly began kneading her claws on the old, pink bedspread. "You weren't paying attention. Why can't you what?" she repeated. Usagi took a deep breath as she turned back to her window. "Why can't I just live a normal life?" "What are you talking about?" Luna demanded as she leapt from the bed to Usagi's warm lap. "You *are* living a normal life..." "No, I am not." Luna rolled her eyes as she regarded her charge. "Don't be silly, Usagi." Usagi gently removed Luna from her lap as she stood up. "I don't think I am." Crossing over to the other side of the room, she stopped short in front of the full-length mirror. "Look at me, Luna... Look at me. Can you see the changes inside my heart?" Luna snorted as she reclined once again on Usagi's bed. "Come on, Usa-chan. You're getting married tomorrow..." "Like I don't know it? Damnit, Luna, *look* at me!" Usagi insisted, her lovely features flushed with anger. "You look as you always do," Luna muttered. "Yes, Luna, I do," Usagi admitted, the anger having fled her light soprano. Her hands found the coils of hair at the base of each ponytail. Loosening the band, her golden mane poured down her back all the way to her ankles. Usagi looked in the mirror before her, her head shaking slowly from side to side. The sadness in Usagi's normally cheerful eyes shocked Luna out of a reprimand. "Usagi...", she began hesitantly. "I'm sorry Princess Selenity died. I'm sorry Neo-Queen Selenity never really gets to live. But what about me? What about Tsukino Usagi?" Luna shook her head violently. "You ARE Selenity, Usagi! What do you think we've been trying to pound into your head for the past few years?" she groaned as she nearly slapped a paw against the yellowed crescent mark on her forehead. Usagi blinked. "Yeah, I guess I am." Luna gave her charge a loving look. "You are just nervous, Usa-chan. You have a big day tomorrow." "Yes, I do." Luna yawned as she relaxed underneath the covers. "Come to bed, Usagi. Sleeping will help the time pass more quickly. " "I'll be right there." Usagi was beginning to sound like herself, the talking cat noted with relief. "Turn off the light, please," Luna requested as she let her eyes close. A moment later, the cheery pink and white room was sheathed in darkness, the dim moon washing the room in shadows. "What are you doing?" Luna groaned in frustration as a small sound found its way to her sensitive feline ears. "Nothing any more, Luna." Usagi answered abruptly as the annoyance stopped. Luna lazily opened a single eye as she Usagi's graceful form move towards the bed. Had the contrary moon not decided to pick that moment to break free of the clouds, Luna would have never known until morning, and Usagi would have been spared a night of scolding. Unfortunately, though, Murphy's Law sprung into effect. "Oh, great Goddess. Usagi! What happened to your hair?" * * * Minako grinned as she rearranged the veil over Usagi's face. "You look beautiful!" she exclaimed happily as she tossed a hairpin towards Makoto. Makoto nodded enthusiastically in agreement. "Yeah, Usa-chan, you are going to make Mamoru so proud of you!" Usagi looked at her two friends, her cheeks red with embarrassment. "You think so? I mean, with my hair..." Mina tapped Usagi gently on the shoulder. "The last thing Mamoru will notice is your hair, Usa." Cocking an eyebrow, Mina shook her head slowly. "Why did you cut your hair anyway?" With a shrug, Usagi turned back to the mirror. "Guess I just didn't want to be 'Odango atama' anymore," she answered, her voice distant. "Why not?" Mako questioned, her well-toned arms folded across her chest. The strains of a slow piano piece floated slowly up to Usagi's room. Suddenly, it all fell into place, and the reality hit the bride hard. "I... I... don't want to go out there," Usagi insisted, her beautiful face white with fear. "I don't want this..." Taking a short step backwards, her trembling hands went to her throat. Immediately, the other two girls were at her side, drawing her into a big hug. "It's ok to be scared, Usa-chan." Mako stated, her own eyes filling with tears. "Really. But you have *nothing* to worry about. I mean, you are marrying *Mamo-chan*. You've always dreamed of this day. And now, it's happening...!" Mako exclaimed, her eyes dancing with the excitement. "Yes, it is." Usagi offered her two best friends a weak smile. "Did you ever think, guys, that we'd be standing here now..." "Yes..." the both grinned simultaneously. Mina pushed Usagi back to the mirror. "You two are meant to be together. Like two peas on a knife..." "That's 'two peas in a pod', Mina-chan," Mako corrected, a smile playing at the corners of her mouth. "Yeah, whatever!" Mina rolled her eyes as she turned her attention back to Usagi. "Look at yourself, Usagi. You will never have doubts, never have regrets...you guys are written in the stars." "Oh, quit it, Mina!" Usagi broke out into a huge grin. "You are beginning to sound like that Dark King..." "But it's the truth, Usa-chan," Mina gave her friend a quick peck on the cheek. "You look beautiful, Princess." Usagi blushed as she took a timid glance into the mirror. "Even now that my hair is gone...?" Her eyes immediately focused on her shining hair which flowed down to the middle of her back. "It'll grow." Mako smiled as she sat on Usagi's bed. Looking around, she shook her head slowly. "I haven't been in here for years!" Taking extra care of her expensive bride's regalia, Usagi crossed over to the bed. "Yeah, I was kinda surprised that Mom didn't change it or anything since I moved out." "She's hardly even touched it," Mina said as she swiped her gloved fingers over a bookshelf. "Eww... shouldn't have done that, now I gotta clean this before they give us the cue." "And we all know how much you hate cleaning," Mako laughed as she watched Mina nod enthusiastically. "Don't see how you could stand it," Mina admitted as she walked towards the door. "Be right back." Usagi nodded as she blew some of her bangs out of her face. "Geesh, maybe I should let these grow out..." "Maybe..." Mako answered noncommitantly. It was blatantly obvious that she was no longer listening. "What's up?" Mako smiled as she stretched out on the bed. "Just thinking. Remembering the last time I was in here." Forgetting the pink bridesmaid dress she wore, Mako let herself fall on the sheets. Usagi pulled the transparent veil off her head, lost in her thoughts. "I never thought I'd come back here again. I mean, Mama and Dad were *so* angry with me for deciding to move out with Mamo-chan...I was so certain they'd never forgive me." "But they did." Mako shrugged as she remembered helping the sixteen year old Moon Princess lug boxes of her stuff to the car waiting outside. "Took them forever, though. Three years..." Usagi complained, that whiny quality she had been certain she banished so long ago returned to her hushed tones. Mako smiled, a look of romantic awe lighting up her pretty face. "What's three years in three thousand? They had to accept it, Usagi... The universe gave them no other choice. Anyway, your parents have been great. Not only have your parents allowed you to move back in for these past couple of months, they also insisted on having the wedding here." "Yeah, they've been pretty good about it," Usagi nodded, her heart brimming over with love for the people who had given her life in this age. The door opened slowly, and Mina peeked in. "Why's it so quiet in here?" the blonde asked as she walked in. Straightening her light pink gloves, Mina shook her head slowly. "For god's sake! It's more like a funeral in here instead of a wedding!" Usagi plastered a weak smile on her face as she regarded her two friends. "I guess I'm just a tad nervous...Remember when we first found out about this whole Sailor Senshi deal?" she asked, not even seeming to realise that she changed the subject. Mako grinned. "Yeah. It was so neat being able to actually do something about that evil instead of waiting for someone to do it for you." "It was definitely cool to fight the bad guys," Mina smiled as she lost herself in memories, "but it was soooo cool to become a star, too." "I remember," Usagi started, a blush creeping up her neck only to spill over her cheeks, "wanting to be as graceful and beautiful as you, Mina-chan..." Mina beamed happily. "And when Luna found me, and told me that I was actually Sailor Moon, it was like a dream come true. Suddenly, I was beautiful, and quick...I wasn't just a klutzy crybaby anymore, I was a superhero!" Usagi blushed vividly at her friends' amused smiles. Shaking it off, she went on. "But when I found out that I had to fight..." "You were never really one for battle," Mina acknowledged, immediately regretting her quick words as she saw the bride cringe. "No, definitely not," Usagi admitted. "Of course you weren't," Mako shrugged. "You are too loving, Usa-chan. You fought when you had to, but your heart was never in it. You just aren't a violent person." Usagi blinked. "But it was my destiny to fight..." Mina nodded. "You did what you had to, Usagi. Anyway, let's forget about this for now. The wedding will start in minutes." Mina stood up. "Let's get going." Laying her palm on Usagi's forearm, Mako shook her head slowly. "You were...still are... our leader, Usa-chan, but I think Fate screwed up big time when it made you carry weapons..." "That's enough, Makoto!" Mina snapped, her nostrils flaring with anger. "Usagi has been the best of us. Sure, she had her problems, but she did her job, and she did it well." Blinking, Usagi stood silently. "I never meant that she didn't make a good warrior, Mina! Jesus. Don't get so defensive. I just meant that she should have fought evil through other means, not physical." Her lips twisted as Mina considered how to respond. "Maybe." The sudden knock at the door cut Mako short as she opened her mouth to speak again. "Usagi!" her mother's voice called through the door. "Usagi!" Hurrying to the entrance, Usagi flung it open. "Mama!" she cried happily as she pulled her mother into a hug. "Is everything ready?" Her mother nodded sadly, her greying black hair bobbing with the movement. Mrs Tsukino surveyed her daughter carefully. "You look beautiful, honey. Here...let me put your veil back on." Usagi smiled as the love for her mother filled her heart. Handing the pretty, lace garment to the short woman, Usagi felt the tears well up in her eyes. With the trembling hands of a woman about to give away her only daughter, Mrs Tsukino gently placed the veil on the golden head. "I love your hair, Usa-chan," she smiled as her index finger tapped a falling curl. "It's about time you got rid of those silly pigtails." Usagi looked down. "You didn't like them, Mama?" "Oh, when you were a little girl, they were so cute! But for a woman, well...they just didn't compliment you." Mrs Tsukino admitted as she finished fixing her daughter's headdress. Eeeking out loud as she heard the musical cue, Usagi turned white as she looked towards the door. "Are you sure you want this, Usagi?" her mother asked, hope glittering in her eyes. Usagi stood there, her heart suddenly aching with some emotion. Bracing herself against the unknown, she nodded slowly. "I do." And minutes later, that girl, Tsukino Usagi, was gone from the face of the earth, only to be replaced by a young woman by the name of Chiba Usagi. * * * "I can't believe that's finally over," Mamoru said as he flung himself in the soft chair in his apartment...Their apartment. Usagi smiled uncertainly as her hands played with the intricate embroidery of her wedding gown. Her Mamo-chan had not made one move towards her the entire night. Maybe he was more upset about her hair than he admitted, she thought, cringing at the idea. "Um, Mamoru?" she asked, her voice timid. "Are you mad about my hair?" Looking up, Mamoru shook his head slowly. "No, I'm not mad, Usa...I just wish you would have told me before you did it." Shrugging off any continuation of the conversation, he grabbed her hand. "Come on, Usa. Let's go to bed. I'm beat." Smiling in relief, Usagi gladly followed her husband to the bedroom. "Oh, ok, Muffin." Loosening his collar, Mamoru turned to his new wife. "You do look beautiful tonight, Usa..." Blushing with happiness, she glanced down at the carpet. Suddenly, his hand was on her chin, forcing her to look him in the eyes. "Take off your dress, Usagi," he ordered, a strange look coming into his blue eyes. "Uh, yeah," Usagi nodded as she felt her heart twist with anticipation. Although they had lived together for three years, never once had they made love. Maybe it went against his morals, or perhaps he didn't want to make her feel as though she *had* to, but in any case, Usagi didn't know. But the pleasurable pain she was feeling in her heart soon cast out any thought which may had been unfortunate enough to find it's way into her head on a night like this. Slowly, she undressed herself. A shudder of happiness travelled up her spine as she watched his intent eyes focusing on lace hiding her cleavage. Dramatically, she stripped the obnoxious cloth away, enjoying the way desire had clouded his eyes. Mamoru strode over to her, his long fingers reaching to cup her breast. "Ouch!" Usagi exclaimed as he squeezed hard on her pink nipples. He gave her a look of impatience. "Don't tell me that you are *that* sensitive, Usagi..." Wincing at the coldness in his voice, she shook her head. "I'm ok. It just felt so good, it caught me off guard," she lied, wondering if he knew that it had hurt her. "You had better get used to it," Mamoru rolled his eyes. "There's a lot more stuff coming." Yup, I guess he did, Usagi thought as Mamoru took over the job of undressing her. The thrill of it all came back as she felt his strong hands on her bare back. Her hands reached up to unbutton his shirt. "Not yet," he smiled, batting her hands away. "You go first." Delighting in the erotic promise, she let him strip her down to her white lace panties. He stepped away from her for a moment as he looked her over. "Oh, Usagi...you are so beautiful," he mummured as his eyes traced over the gentle lines and curves of her body. Shivering, with both passion and cold, Usagi stepped closer to him. "No," he insisted as he pushed her on the bed. "I said you go first." Literally tearing off the expensive underwear, he threw it aside, ignoring her gasp of protest. He kneeled at the edge of the bed, his black tuxedo dusty from the floor. His eyes widened as they caught view of the curly, blonde triangle at the apex of her thighs. He dove between her legs, forcing them apart with his hands. His tongue teased her nether lips apart, causing the girl to moan with pleasure. But suddenly, all sensations stopped except an indifferent pressure at the opening of her vagina. Propping herself up on her elbows, she looked down to see Mamoru sticking his wet tongue up her virgin hole. Blinking, she wondered what was wrong with her. It just melted her heart to see him trying so hard to give her pleasure, but for her not to even feel it, Usagi knew that something had to be wrong with her. Oh, well, she thought as she faked a groan of pleasure, I don't want to hurt him. Usagi increased the intensity of her groans, throwing herself completely into her acting job. After one particularly strong wail of pleasure, he removed his face from her dry area. "Did you orgasm?" Mamoru demanded, saliva dripping from his face. She nodded, her face flushed with embarrassment as she quickly caressed the liquid off, hoping that her husband didn't realise that it was there. "Stay there," Mamoru said as he stood up. Unzipping his pants, he pulled out his limp manhood. Roughly, he jerked his hand up and down the veiny shaft. Usagi watched in wonder as the flesh hardened, and began to grow to about the length of her Moon Wand. Whimpering at the idea of that thing entering her tender flesh, she started scooting away. "Usagi! Come on! You went over already. It's my turn," Mamoru insisted as he pulled her back down into easy reach. Usagi bit her lips hard to keep from screaming. He doesn't mean to hurt me, she told herself repeatedly. He doesn't know...he doesn't know. With only a grunt as warning, he thrust his hard organ into her, tearing both her dry entrance and her maidenhead with one violent move. Pulling her hips hard to his body, Mamoru shoved in and out at a breathtaking speed. Usagi looked up towards her Destiny, the tears clouding her view. It hurts so much, Usagi cried inside as she prayed for Mamo-chan to finish this horrid deed. Blinking, she regained control over herself. Her pubis, literally numbed by his exertions, was turning red from the strength of his thrusts. She looked up at his slack-jawed face, and the feral look in his eyes and shivered. Are those women insane? she wondered as she remembered the scores of romance novels she read while growing up. I can't imagine any woman... Usagi gritted her teeth as Mamoru suddenly grabbed her pink nipples *hard*... I can't imagine any woman, she continued, ever finding this pleasurable, much less romantic. Finally, after an eternity, Mamoru reached his release, gasping as he buried himself as far in her as he could. Usagi cringed as he lay on top of her, his full weight crushing her lungs. Get off, get off, she pleaded silently, hoping that any part of him would understand. After a few minutes, he pulled his limp member out. Smiling happily and blatantly ignoring the blood covering his penis, Mamoru gave Usagi a little kiss on the forehead. "I love you, Odango Atama," he whispered as he let himself fall to the bed. "I love you, too." The next thing Usagi knew, she could hear gentle snoring coming from her right. Brushing her tears away, she lifted herself carefully from the bed, taking every precaution to ensure she didn't wake her only love. "Damn!" she breathed harshly as she felt a stream of liquid escape from her breached hole. Sticking a finger in her vagina, Usagi whimpered as she saw the blood. Calm down, she commanded herself, as she attempted to walk towards the bathroom. The numbness of her first sexual encounter wore off, making her realise exactly how sore she was. Wondering where all the blood was coming from, but knowing it was only natural after her first time, Usagi rushed to the lavatory to clean herself up. Looking in the mirror, Usagi blanched as she noticed the chaotic picture she presented. Her sunlit tresses looked anything but as they fell in stringy knots down to the middle of her back. "I look like hell," Usagi admitted sadly as she noticed the tear-stains covering her cheeks, her puffy eyes, and swollen nose. Washing her face slowly and carefully, Usagi turned away from the mirror, wondering what other joys married life had in store. * * * The man in the olive green trenchcoat exhaled with impatience as he watched that nitwit, Mamoru, fall directly asleep after he unknowingly screwed up his first night with his new wife. The man looked in the direction of the lavatory, wondering how long it would take for that snippet of a girl to return. As hard as it was, he couldn't help but feel a little sorry for his sworn enemy. Even though he had watched the scene from the safety of his crystal ball, it would have been impossible to miss how much that big lug hurt the former Sailor Senshi. He couldn't rejoice at her pain, for it was unnecessary. No enemy should be denied the chance to fight back (if nothing else, Beryl taught him that), and that's the right Mamoru stole away when he accepted Usagi's complete heart. Pushing his compassion aside, the man focused his thoughts on the matter on hand: the complete and utter destruction of the girl currently weeping her heart out in the bathroom. He hated the lithe blonde with all his soul for it was for her crimes that he had spent three agonizing years dealing with the worst torture anyone could conceive: being trapped in a block of ice, while fully conscious. The fallen Dark King, Jadeite, smiled evily as he brought the box of chocolate candy out of a pocket. Laying the box carefully under her pillow, he looked down at the insignificant human sprawled across the queen-sized bed. "Bastard," Jadeite whispered softly as his eyes darted from Mamoru's dark hair and tan complexion. "You break her heart, over and over again, only to regain her trust and hurt her more. Yet, your dedicated little wife has been nothing but loyal and loving towards you. If it wasn't so important that she receives her punishment from my own hands, I'd be content to let you be the one who kills her," Jadeite shook his head as he opened a portal to his own realm. "Because, you realise, you will..." "Uh, Jadeite?" Usagi asked, her eyes wide as she saw the handsome blond man standing above her husband. "Yes, Jadeite. Jesus. How quickly we forget," Jadeite muttered as he moved towards the beautiful girl who was currently wearing only a towel. Tearing his eyes away from the well-rounded globes of flesh peeking from the top of the towel, he focused on her pretty face. "Get out of here," Usagi demanded as she instinctively drew away from the intruder. Jadeite gave a small bow. "As you wish, Madam Chiba." Stepping into the dark portal, he instantly winked out of sight. Usagi whimpered as she collapsed to the ground. Sniffling, she wiped her eyes, wondering what to do next. "Usaaaagiiii," Jadeite's voice echoed softly in the room. "Usagi, don't even dream that this is over. Sleep well, Princess." Just as abruptly as it began, the voice faded into oblivion, leaving Usagi on the floor, trembling. "Jadeite's back?" she whispered. "Usa..." Mamoru growled, half asleep. "Quit talking and get back to bed." Usagi barely stopped herself in time before she told her new husband what just happened. Taking a deep breath, she stood up and walked towards the bed. "It was probably just a dream," she told herself firmly as she got into bed. "That's it...just one of my nightmares coming back to haunt me." Smiling, she looked lovingly to her snoring husband. "It has been a long night. But it's worth it to be with you." She leaned back slowly, content to spend the rest of the night just watching Mamoru ('cause God knows, after that nightmare, there was no way in heck you could get her to go to sleep any time soon) only to bolt up as something bit into her neck. Looking down, Usagi turned pale as she noticed the red heart box of chocolates peeking out from beneath her pillow. Steeling herself, she picked up the ornate card attached to the undoubtedly expensive box. Congratulations, Madam. -J Chiba Usagi closed her eyes tightly, trying to find the strength within her to suppress her terrified sobs. --End Part One-- ----------------------------- Send all C&C to lord_jadeite@hotmail.com No offense to Mamoru-lovers out there... But as I wrote this story, the more brutish our dear Mamo-chan became. He doesn't mean any harm, I suppose, he's just a selfish idiot. Anyway! I hope you liked this piece. Please, if you did, send me a short e-mail or something. Makes me feel special. ;-) This is Part One of Three Parts. Look for Part Two of "Whispered Dreams", which will be released soon. Thanks! Jadeite, 2/17/98 http://www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Bay/6220