WARNING!!!  The story you are about to read is a lemon.  It has sexual aspects.  Consider yourself warned.  Most of the characters aren't mine.  I only borrowed them for a bit of romp and play.  Any questions, comments, flames, love letters or death threats should be sent to: leloi@hotmail.comTo Protectby LeloiMamoru woke with a profound sense of sadness.  The odd part about it was he usually woke with fear or urgency.  This was different.  Instead of a spasm of consciousness... He struggled to open his eyes.  He could feel waves of sadness roll over him, threatening to drown him in their depths.  Finally he opened his tear-soaked eyes and stared up at the ceiling... He tried to find relief in the geometric patterns of light that reflected from the city below.  "What is this?  Did something happen to Usagi?" he asked himself.  No... He could feel her warm, gentle spirit bound to his own.  She wasn't in any danger.  Then what was he feeling?Something occurred to him suddenly as he watched the patterns of light on the ceiling.  "I betrayed them..." he said quietly, unsure of what he meant.There was a moan at his side and someone shifted their weight in his bed.  His heart stopped in fear as he turned to the shape beside him.  "What have I done?" he asked himself, staring at the woman.  She rolled over and he watched her in the darkness.  Her bare breasts rose and fell with the rhythm of her breathing.   Gently, he reached out to touch the hair on her forehead.  It was as soft as silk between his fingers.  He noticed a mark on her forehead and bent over to get a better look in the dimly lit room.  With his fingertips he gently brushed away her hair.  Faintly he saw an upright crescent moon.  He let his breath out in relief.  The woman was his own beloved bride, Usagi.  The thought struck him suddenly.  "She's my bride... We were married yesterday.  Why didn't I remember that?"  He watched her breathe in deep sleep.  Quietly, he kissed her on the forehead and rolled over to arise from their wedding bed.  He watched Usagi sigh and roll over to where he had been, clutching his pillow.Mamoru sighed and went to the bathroom.  He made certain to close the door before turning on the light.  The sudden change of light blinded him as he blinked to dilate his pupils.  Gradually, he regained his sight.  He studied the naked man in the mirror that stared back at him with his eyes.  His eyes were red and swollen from the dream.  "What did I dream?  Who did I betray?" he asked his reflection.  He turned on the sink and watched the water spiral down the drain before reaching for a handful to wash his face.  The water off, he reached for an embroidered towel... It had a rose on it.  It had been a housewarming gift from Chibi-Usa.  The stitches were uneven, but it had been made with love.  Usagi had one too, with little bunnies and crescent moons on it.  Carefully, Mamoru dried his face and watched the man in the mirror do the same.  A voice entered his mind.  "You killed us!" it said.  Mamoru fought to keep the tears from forming.  He gripped the counter for support.  "Who are you?" he demanded from the voice in the mind.  The voice came to him again.  "We loved you, Prince of the Earth."Mamoru crumbled to the floor.  His tears fell freely.  He remembered another lifetime when he was the Prince of the Earth.  He had traveled to the Moon Kingdom with his four dearest friends and they were taken from him in battle... A thousand years later they were killed.  "No!"  Mamoru moaned as he buried his face in his arms.  He rocked himself in a steady rhythm to take away the pain.   "Prince Endymion, why are you crying?""They are dead, they are all dead..." he cried.  Something bothered him about the voice he heard and the name it called him.  He rubbed the tears from his eyes and looked up.  There was a woman standing before him.  His heart jumped in his throat because he knew that she didn't belong there.  She was staring at him with a look of hunger and he suddenly realized that he was naked.  In a flash of modesty he tried to cover his nakedness with his hands.  He blushed in frustration as he tried to shield himself from her prying eyes.  "Who are you?"  He demanded."You forget so easily..." She said with a sigh.He watched as his bathroom melted away into the darkness.  In its place was a cavern.  He was crouched, naked on the chilly, dirty floor.  The woman before him continued to look at him in a carnivorous way.  "Let's begin with who you are... What's your name?"  She asked."Chiba Mamoru."  He replied automatically."Wrong!  You are Prince Endymion, champion of the Dark Kingdom."  She said with a frown.  "No... I'm Mamoru... The Dark Kingdom is gone.  Sailormoon vanquished it several years ago."  He whispered."You are confused, Prince Endymion.  The Dark Kingdom is strong and will never be defeated.  You have suffered a memory lapse.  We are attempting to reprogram you."  She said with a twist on her face.  "Now... Tell me who I am."  She commanded.Mamoru tried to focus on his fuzzy memories.  She looked familiar, but he didn't know where from.  In a flash of insight he knew.  "Beryl."  He whispered with a look of hatred on his face.  "You broke my mind and violated my soul.  But Sailormoon saved me." "You are mistaken, Prince Endymion.  You are very much under my control... Your Sailorbrat won't be saving you.""But she did... She saved me and you were defeated."  He said, as the memories became clear to him.Beryl turned to the shadowed man beside her.  "What is he talking about Kunzite?"  "We have been purging his memories... Apparently we have stumbled on his future memories... His destined memories."  Kunzite said dispassionately."Fascinating."  Said Beryl.  "We must learn all we can about what timeline he's channeling to make sure it never comes to pass.""Yes, my Queen."  Kunzite said.Mamoru tried to focus on their words... But his mind was frantically trying to make sense of the situation.  The Dark Kingdom was gone... Sailormoon had defeated Beryl in battle.  It was his wedding night... He had had a nightmare and went to the bathroom...  He was too cold to think.  He hugged himself to find some warmth.  Why was he naked?A change in Beryl's voice broke Mamoru's thoughts.  "You will follow Kunzite to be reprogrammed."Mamoru looked to her and allowed the hatred to shine in his eyes.  "I will not."  He said angrily.Beryl raised an evil eyebrow and twitched the side of her mouth.  One long, cold arm shot out and savagely grabbed Mamoru's penis.  She dug her fingers into it, so he was forced to stand and follow her bidding.  "You will go... Or you will die."  She said with venom in her voice.  She shoved Mamoru into Kunzite's waiting arms.  Mamoru tried to fight off tears of pain and humiliation as he was dragged into the brainwashing room.  Kunzite unceremoniously dumped him on the table.  "Kunzite... You don't have to follow her orders.  You are my general, remember?"  Mamoru asked.Kunzite looked at him with anger.  "You are not my friend.  You left us to be taken by the Dark Kingdom while you went to save your precious princess.""She was my only love... I had to help her.""You left us to die!  You were a traitor to your planet and your people.""I'm so sorry, Kunzite... I didn't know...""It is because of your Princess that Beryl killed the others... Jedite, Nephrite... Zoicite."  His voice broke on the last name.  "She killed Zoi... My Zoi... All because of your princess!"Mamoru was silent.  Kunzite summoned the powers of brainwashing.  "Sweet dreams, my prince... It'll be the last you see of your love."The world went dark for Mamoru.  Then there was light... Blinding light.  He opened his eyes and found himself back in the bathroom.  Was it just a dream?  He looked down at his penis.  Beryl had scratched him with her nails when she grabbed him.  The tender skin had been scratched.  He began to shiver.   The bathroom door opened slowly and a golden haired woman peeked in.  "Mamoru?" she asked with a quavering voice.  Mamoru looked with bleary eyes to see his love, Usagi standing in the doorway.  Her hair was down and messed with sleep.  Her beautiful, blue eyes pierced his soul.  "What's wrong, my love?"  She kneeled before him.  He reached out a hand and touched her silk bedroom kimono she had thrown on before checking on him."They died because of me..." He said, quietly.Usagi reached out to hold her naked husband in her arms.  "Who died, my love?""My court... Zoi, Jed, Kun, Neph...  They all died because of me."  Mamoru murmured into her hair.  Usagi touched his face with her cool white hands.  She traced his tears with her fingertips.  "They were killed by Beryl, my love.""No!"  He jerked away from her.  "I could have saved them like you did for those twisted sisters... It was in my power to intervene... I could have... They were a part of my court.  They were my friends.  I let them die."  He huddled himself into a little ball.Usagi touched his back and traced his spine with her fingers.  "You didn't know who they were."  She listened to his ragged breathing.  "I could have saved them too.  It's more of my fault that I didn't see..." She swallowed hard.  "Mamoru?"  She reached out to touch his face.  "Mamoru?"He suddenly sat up.  He turned to her.  The pain in his eyes made her flinch.  "Will they ever forgive me?"Usagi racked her brain for something to say.  "I think, in the end they all learned to love."  He looked at her, puzzled.  Usagi looked to the ground.  "Zoi and Kun were lovers and they thought of each other... Naru saved Neph."Mamoru's eyes softened as he reached for Usagi's face.  He pulled her to him and enfolded her into his arms.  "My Usagi... Always trying to comfort me."  He whispered into her hair.  He held her for a long moment before gathering his strength to stand.  He lifted her in his arms and carried her out of the bathroom and into the bedroom.Mamoru lay Usagi on the bed.  Carefully, he untied her kimono and pulled it off so she lay naked.  Carefully he kissed every soft inch of her skin.  She moaned and writhed beneath him on the bed, begging him to satisfy her desire for him.       He was happy to comply.  His hands twisted themselves up in her golden hair.  He hovered above her, taking in her beauty.  Her woman scent that wafted to him from below and made is mouth water.  He wanted to devour her and make her a part of himself.  He wanted their souls to be one.  He leaned forward and took a nipple between his lips and began to suck.  She made little noises and began to wiggle.  He loved it when she did that.  Her hands on his cheeks pushed him down her stomach to her mound.  His salivary glands went crazy.  He had to taste her.  Carefully the tip of his tongue found her clitoris and her back arched.  It was as if he had completed a circuit.  He explored her folds and watched as her body found new ways to contort itself.  Finally he couldn't control himself and plunged his tongue into her depths.  She sucked in air and clamped her legs around his head.  His hands fondled her ass and pulled her hips closer to his hungry mouth.  Her ass... He remembered when they were younger he had called her "Buns."  At the time he meant her hairstyle... But he really meant her perfect little ass he now held.  He was intoxicated with her scent and her taste.  He couldn't stop as she rhythmically squeezed her thighs around his head.  To fill her every desire was his only purpose in life..."You are so pussy whipped, Endymion."  Came a cruel voice.Mamoru opened his eyes to see that he once again was in the brainwashing room.  He sighed as the taste of his love began to fade from his lips.  He suddenly was very angry with his General.  "I am your Prince.  Never say that to me that again or I shall enjoy killing you!"    "Very good, Prince Endymion."  Beryl smiled as she watched the two ex-friends.  "I think Kunzite is jealous because you are better at pleasuring a woman with oral sex than he is.""He wouldn't know about how to pleasure a woman.  Maybe he can pleasure a man.  We'll never know now that Zoicite is dead."  Mamoru laughed.  The last of his memories of his wedding night disappeared and were replaced by cruel thoughts towards Kunzite.Kunzite growled and turned away."Maybe you should show Endymion how good you are with a man."  Beryl teased her General.  Kunzite turned and looked at them both with pure hatred.  He was torn between hating Endymion and obeying his Queen.  The conflict within him was pure Dark Kingdom Energy.  It made Beryl smile to see Kunzite fight his emotions.  The struggle within meant more power for the Dark Kingdom.Kunzite returned to the table where Endymion lay, helpless.  He took the Prince's penis in his hand and without taking his eyes off his Queen, swallowed it.  Beryl smiled at her General's loyalty, despite his hatred.  She smiled at Endymion for his loyalty, despite his shock.Endymion fought off the sensations he was feeling.  He hated Kunzite for violating him when he was helpless.  He hated Kunzite even more for bringing new and pleasurable sensations to him.  He watched his ex-friend take him and he was torn between hating him for the violation and loving him for the experience.  Memories of lazy summer afternoons spent together flooded Endymion's mind.  He remembered the first time he and his companions had experimented with sexual activity.  How Kun had sucked on him then like he did now.  All of a sudden, the Prince came.  Kunzite made a face and spit the ejaculate back on Endymion's stomach.  Beryl giggled, "Very good, gentlemen."  She patted both Endymion and Kunzite on the cheek as if they were her pets.  She left the room without looking back."You could have warned me!"  Kunzite snarled."I didn't know you were going to suck me off!"  Endymion snarled back.  "You violated me!""You liked it.  You liked it a thousand years ago and you like it now.  Admit it!""Never!""You were always so stubborn.""You were always so full of yourself!""I hate you!""Well, I hate you too!""Good!""Good!""Fine!""Fine!""You were always such a bitch.""Takes one to know one.""Cry baby.""Yeah?  Well, you and Zoi where..."Kunzite turned ten shades of red.  He slammed his fists down on the table.  "SHUT UP!!!  Leave Zoi out of this.  You had to open your big mouth and tell me he's dead.  I know he's dead!  I loved him and SHE killed him and now he's dead and I had to suck your cock because you reminded HER that he is dead."  Tears freely fell from Kunzite's eyes.  He covered his face with his hands and turned away.The coldness warmed and melted in Endymion.  "I'm sorry Kun."  He whispered."How can you be sorry?  You've never loved and lost."Endymion tried to reflect on whether or not that was true.  He vaguely remembered a girl with pigtails.  "I think I have..." he said quietly.  "I think she's been brainwashed away."  Kunzite looked at his Prince with pity.  "You want to see more of the life you lost to brainwashing?"  He asked.Endymion blinked in surprise.  "What about Beryl?""Fuck Beryl."  Kunzite whispered under his breath.Endymion wasn't so certain that that is what she had in mind for him all along."Close your eyes."  Kunzite ordered.Endymion did as he was told.Sounds of commotion made him open his eyes.  At first he thought that he and Kunzite had been caught.There was a scream.  He turned to the source and saw a blond woman in obvious pain.  The room was in a hospital.  A blue haired woman turned to him and told him to "Go coach Usagi."  Why would the rabbit need coach?  The blond woman screamed again and the blue haired woman looked at him expectantly.  Then he remembered.  Usagi was his wife.  She was giving birth to their daughter.  The blue haired woman was Ami and she was acting as midwife for the birth.  He looked around the room and saw it crowded with all the Senshi of the court.  The birth of Chibi-Usa was a big event.  He took his place beside his wife and helped her breathe.  He held her hand and encouraged her to push.  Finally there was an ear-piercing wail.  Usagi gave one of her own and passed out.  Ami stood and covered something with a pink blanket before handing it over to the only conscious parent.  He looked down at the squalling infant and his heart bounded.  It was love at first sight.  He reminded himself that it wasn't exactly first sight.  Chibi-Usa had been sent back in time to be raised by Usagi and himself, before she was born.  But now the circle was complete.  She had been born.  She quieted as he held her.  "Chibi-Usa," he whispered.  "I love you."  He looked down at his exhausted wife and kissed her on the forehead.  Her huge blue eyes blinked open and she reached for the baby with a smile.  "I love you."  Mamoru whispered to her.  The Senshi applauded the birth of their princess.Mamoru held his family and felt as if his heart would break with all the love it felt.  Mamoru closed his eyes and began to cry.Endymion opened his eyes and felt the hot tears run down his temples and filled his ears.  He sniffled.  Kunzite was above him, hovering with concern.  "What did you see?""The birth of my daughter."  Endymion whispered."Never forget the feeling.  You may forget the event... But never forget the feeling."  Kunzite said."Forget the event?"  Endymion asked as he sat up.  The idea made him cry even harder.  The thought of loosing his most cherished memory hurt him.Kunzite watched his Prince cry.  After a long moment he sighed.  "Was Venus there?"  Endymion controlled his tears long enough to think about it.  "She was."Kunzite let out a breath of air and a snort of laughter.  "Remember when we went to the moon and we each danced all night with one of the Senshi?  I was with Venus.  She was so pretty... But she couldn't dance.""You remember that?""Not really the event... Until now.  But I remembered the feeling.  I kept the feelings and that is how my love for Zoi was kept alive in this dark place.  It was my hope."Endymion was silent.  His memories already began to fade.  The pain of love in his heart was still strong."Will you ever forgive me?""For what, my Prince?""Leaving you to the Dark Kingdom."Kunzite turned away without a word and began to walk down the corridor.   Endymion sat at the edge of the brainwashing table.  A voice came to him from far away.  "We lived and died to protect you... Because we loved you."--THE END